powerful_crystal's Xanga

The year of 2008

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 01:24:21 GMT

Less than 12 hours then need to say good bye to 2008 ...

This year is a important year for me ... A lot of Changes for me ...

Come back to Australia in Feb, the last session in my uni life and living in I house ...

Move out from i house which i lived that for 2 years ... graduated .. move in with rob starting my house girlfriend life ...

then Went throught a horrible time ... promblems with visa, job, study master or keep looking for a job ...

end up i still cant find one but i m just not going to be stress ... let "him" to plan my path for me ... even i stress so much is not going to help ...

so i wish everyone have a best year in our year --OX hahahhahah

getting ready to go to sydney habour to see the biggest firework in the world ... pic up later

New Life !!

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 06:25:12 GMT

long time havent write xanga already .. since i have facebook .. i just stop writing my xanga .. but i think i should tell my friend from home that whats going on in the pass 6 months in australia !!

I finished my party life and my uni life already !! I graduated already !! finished yeah .. no more bloody assignments which is killing me !! I m a nutritionist now but i havent fnished .. i still need to study master to become a dietitian but from now on i want to stop study for a bit !! Try to find a job in australia , i know it is very hard for me .. but i will try my best !! god bless me please !!

Finished party life is becoz i have a serious bf now ! that is no point for me to go hunting agian !! some of you guys might know about rob , some might not ! Rob is an aussie .. he is crazy in love with me .. and i can tell that he is the ONE .. i never meet an aussie guy treat me like he does, i always ask myself, am i dreaming that ? he is very nice guy !! he is not super hot as Jeremy but he is super nice , he nice to everyone, so far all my friend who meet him. they like him !

Now me and rob are living together in a big brend new apartment just oppsite from glass house ( the club that i usually go ) the location is super good !! close to everywhere not uni , but i dont need to go there anyway !!

here is the new address , incase someone want to send me something

406/53-61 Crown Street,

Wollongong, NSW, 2500

Australia

I also change my moblie number in australia as well

+ 61 416 199 424

I m so much happy now compare last year .. i m going back to normal crystal not crazy crystal !!

of coz i need to show you guys some my lovely pic right ...

my song in this year !!

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 23:11:51 GMT

was looking for the new song , then i found out Gillian new song !! listen to it ... the lysics just exactly what i going through at the moment .. so true !! every single just say how i feel at this moment ...

you guys so just to try to this song ... then maybe can feel what i m going through at this moment !

鍾欣桐 - 雙重打擊

明明我為人還樂觀　為何能眼淚仍同伴
他都因我性格變悲觀　仍無厭棄我轉新了般
而情緒跌倒無力管　最初失戀怎會這般
憂鬱憂到懶理平日外觀淚到口邊一剎那定會

# 無氣力吃亦無需要忍　問知我心只得我醫生
誰信藥丸可以醫好我心　令我憂鬱的他都是醫生

*害怕這世界也都拋棄我　良朋無良方安慰我
茫茫然娛樂樂趣不多
從何時犯了過錯　他不敢接觸我
害怕我摯愛母親都怕接近我　連仁慈牧師都怕教導我
從前曾完全奉獻給他
仍殘酷地對我　怕我憂鬱到著魔

原來愛到尾還是假　可惜收到他送的花
知道總會愛上情人像他　沒有開心可貢獻便怕

repeat#

誰也會欣賞笑臉　難耐淚海滔天
這憂鬱症叫我看真世上嘴臉

這世界已經拋棄我　良朋無良方安慰我
茫茫然娛樂樂趣不多
從何時犯了過錯　再不敢接觸我
害怕我摯愛母親都怕接近我　連仁慈牧師都怕教導我
從前曾完全奉獻給他
仍殘酷地對我　怕我憂鬱到著魔~~

Lunar EcLipse

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 01:46:29 GMT

Hey guys ...

Have you go out to see the lunar eclipse ? if you guys watch the news will know that Australia is the first place to have it and the moon is red .... i know hong kong ;s one wasnt red ...

I went to the beach and saw the RED moon ... very pretty ... took some pic but is not very clear but you still can see the moon is red !!

Jealous about me to see a Red moon ... hehehehhe

no worries , i pose the pic up to share with you guys ....

pretty right ....

afraid to see you again !

Sun, 27 May 2007 11:12:57 GMT

I know i should give up, but all after talked to him , he went home during the weeked until he came back again !! i still miss him , i still love him !!! What can i do ? here is my feeling now . i kept listen to this song agian and agian and again !!!

十分.愛
分手後應該擺脫　卻自覺天真
曾傷我最深的人　捉緊我心

＊應該漠不關心　然而還著緊
　消失枕邊人　很想跟你熱吻

　愛你要比沉淪深海更難耐
　你沒有心給我未來
　求你莫再　令我憎你還愛＊

＃早知不應試愛　便算哀
　現在問問誰珍惜不再
　活該　當得到所愛
　背著我犯錯竟不散不愛

　心　未放開
　原來逃避感覺　越怕越存在
　愛滿分　竟是換來　痛亦滿分
　可否錯一次以後　一直愛
　(不想再一次意外)＃

這考驗不高深　是靠著你真心
來傷我更深的人　多麼次等

REPEAT＊＃＃

十分.愛 (合唱版) (電影"獨家試愛"主題曲)

分手後一分鐘　便有後悔聲音
能傷我最深的人　偏得我心

＊應該漠不關心　然而還著緊
　當攬緊他人　想起跟你熱吻

　愛過太深　原來身體會疑問
　再沒法可適應別人
　願醉掉了　能容許你憐憫＊

＃早知不應試愛　未放開　便節哀
　有情人　日日夜夜同分開感慨
　避開　願你改　一個　小小意外
　未悔恨我未會知　不散不愛

　心　話放開　未放開　雨驟來
　才能提示真愛是確實存在
　愛滿分　竟是換來　痛亦滿分
　可否錯一次以後　一直愛
　(可否錯一次以後)＃

分手後天天都是最重要犧牲
皮膚有你的指紋　刻得太深

REPEAT＊＃＃

PS >My friend, i know that you are going through a very hard time as well, but no worries, let cheers up together, this is not our fault !!! love is the thing that we cant control , is not you give 100% and you can get back 100% .... i m a very good example !! i gave 100% only can get back 30% if i m lucky !!!

All because of misundering !!!

Thu, 24 May 2007 01:50:38 GMT

Finally , i did talk to him yesterday ! He came back from glassy , he was very drunk , i was trying to do my paper , but when i saw him that drunk and he wasnt fine , i just need to take care of him !

I went to give him water , I was with him ! I took care of him ! I just cant leave him alone at this point !

Then he become a bit normal , but he lost his wine , so we went outside together to look for it , i knew he couldnt fine it , but i just want to looked after him , so i walked with him !!

When we came back to i house , he saw me was unhappy , he asked me whats wrong ? why you look sosoos unhappy ? I told him that the last two weeks , i never happy before !! i Cant do work , I cant sleep ~~

Then he said " lets sit down and talk !" and at that time he wasnt drunk !

I told him " you know i like you right ? " He said " Yes "

He asked me " you are leaving this session , right ? " I said " no ! "

" How long will you still here ? you are leaving at the end of this year right ?"

" no , i will stay here another 3 years "

Then i saw his face changed ....I knew that he doesnt want a long term relationship ! i knew that , and he though that i m leaving in this session so he didnt ask me out ! For me i though that he didnt ask me out coz he is using me so i didnt tell him that i like him ! "

when i said that " i like you for so long just waiting one day , i really want to be with you ! "

He said " oh no ! " he didnt know that i like him that long !"

At the end i ask him : have you ever like me before ? He said "YES a little bit !"

This is osososo silly and stupid and i cant do believe this happen to me !!! becoz of misunderstanding then everything is differnet ! we can not do anything now ! becoz that involve the third person in it !! oh my goodnesss .... !!! how stupid is that !!!

seriously now i do not know what to do !!!!!

trying to be normal

Tue, 22 May 2007 13:16:34 GMT

Hey my friends and friend in I house ,( just read your xanga )!

I know this few weeks , a lot of people worry about me ! and i know you guys are caring about all the time !!

i m very happy about this !! seriously , i do feel the love from you guys !!

also i know that i need to move on . need to step forward and do not look back !!!

But to be honest , i dont want to let go ! i dont want to just give up at this point , i know it sound sososos stupid !

I had already change myself , people also can see that crystal had changed , she is differnet now !! i noticed that ! The main point of cutting my hair is becoz i want to change myself to fit in this whole situation ! The frist week for me is fine , i still can prepent i m alright , but deep inside , i m not !!!

i still crying in my room everyday , i still want to go to him , really sit down have a talk with him ! although i know that nothing will be change ! i just want us to be normal ! i want to tell him that , i m not alright , and i m sure that he knew! i can tell by his eyes when he look at me !!

WHat can i do ! i did change myself , i did act everything is fine for me ! i try to accpet the fact ! but this is sososo hard for me ...

Because of him , i could not do my work ! Because of him , i cried everyday , Because of him , i got drunk quiet often , Because of him ... i was thinking to hurt myself ( of coz i wont do it , i just think about it )

This moment , Crystal is very weak , she is not that stronge !

my friend , do you think that i should sit down and talk with him ? seriously we havent really talk about it !!

but i m scared that he will not talk to me ever agian when we start talking about that topic !

God , please show me what to do is right for me !!

GIVe loVe a BreaK !

Tue, 08 May 2007 06:10:34 GMT

I know this is an old song , but the lysic is what i want to say !!

苦苦堅持　經已沒意思
為何不可以　由我去決定誰
才應該在我心中　擁有位置
當你下次　要玩伴時
手機按到沒電時
情願你別來　找這失勢女子

想起當時　蠢也沒法子　純情得可以
男生中只得你　贈我戒指
原來就算最愛我　不過暫時
名次每隔兩日都改變位置
一變四　四變十二
來到這禮拜　更加諷刺

＊何以　我變了你的　16號愛人
　隨便　碰上哪個她
　都比我更有趣吸引
　偶爾我亦　願我是別人
　能轉個化身　共你再蜜運

　我以前是冠軍　怎會慣　做後備愛人
　曾經　也上到最高
　逐漸滑落　谷底的暗
　看見未來　雙腳已在震
　因我說過愛是無憾　才會受教訓＊

謙卑的人　只要做亞軍　仍然很興奮
誰知吞聲忍氣　就變季軍
誰人話我會縱你　勾搭別人
連跌倒四五六七都會默允
忍了你　你更薄倖
能叫我跌倒　永不超生

REPEAT＊

不想再競逐　你的吻　我怕贏了惹公憤
面對幾千個敵軍　終日查問
是誰幸運做你本週冠軍

何以　我變了你的　16號愛人
隨便　踫上哪個她　都比我更美更吸引
最怕以後　位置再下沉
完結了也好　恨也再別恨

我以前是冠軍　怎會慣　做後備愛人
曾經　也上過冠軍
現在份外　深深不忿
你那熱唇　她吻我又吻
當你變了這樣隨便　誰個又要吻

i cant stand that anymore ! i know it is hard for me to forget him, but i have no choice ! Coz i m very disapointed !

Crazy Crystal

Fri, 04 May 2007 02:38:57 GMT

Last Wed , we had a uniform party , and i dressed like a school girl ... but it was a very bad school girl !! you can tell when you look like my pic !!

I was happy coz i can see my RJC mates , and most of them couldnt recongize me !! haha which means i really dress differnet ... not a normal crystal ,,, which is good !! i always want to dress like that but i just dont have a chance to dress like that !!

Tomorrow i m going to harbour cruise ... hope there will be fun over there !!

PIC TIME:

this is not a right thing to do

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 02:26:27 GMT

hey guys ,

I have already come back to australia nearly 2 months already ... in this two months seem i went through so many steps , went through a lot of difficulty ! lucky i am still a SURVIVOR not going to shoot somone !

Things happen is happened

you and me cant change the history ! What we did is a mistake ! and i do not thing we should carry on this kind of thing ever agian ! coz this is just keep hurting me every single day ! no one knows our special "relationship" ~~ i just want to get back to the begining !~~ i am ososo sick of hiding my feeling from my friends, i need smile infront of them , although i am very upset ! i need to pretend i dont care but i do care , i care alot !!!

i know that you are not the right person for me , not the right guy ! Crystal should wake up now ! start her new life agian ! Become a party girl agian ! GO CLUBBING !! I DONT GIVE A SHIT !